I didn't do anything today. I didn't go to church, again! I seriously hate myself for skipping church. Samuel asked me out but I was just too lazy to go out. Sorry! I tell you that guy is totally fit, but what do you expect from a rugby guy. Hahaha :D Really really bored. I don't know what to do now. Thomas has finally come to a realisation to stay as friends so that's good. Sometimes I just feel like closing down my friendster. I can't take compliments well I guess. Okay, I musn't go out so often alr, I must must study. No more drinking & late nights!
I don't feel good at all right now. My eyes are super dry. I want to scream! I'm trying not to look back at all. I'm trying not to miss you so much. You're a busy man, I shldn't disturb you or occupy your time. I want you back so badly that I break down & cry. But I know its impossible. I've waited all along for you, yet there aint any sign. I'm just a total fool right? Everytime I know a new guy, I've always thought of you. Everytime I think of you, its so hard for me to move on. I love you so much that I think those recent guys whom I know are way too irritating. I'm hoping my heart will change for the better. Boy, I miss you so fucking much. Thinking back on every lil thing, makes me so sad. I need you & I love you. Why don't you please just tell me to stop waiting? Why don't you make me realise we're not gonna work out anymore? Honey, please knock some sense into me.
Many pple come to me to share their problems & help them, but I have my problems now too ): We all break down & cry sometimes. Sometimes out of happiness, sometimes out of sadness. People that seem so solid, so strong & hard as stone, seemed so full of life like life couldn't be better. Still, they have times when they break down. Lets face it we all do. Why am I crying? I wish I knew. What does it mean to cry & be sad but yet perplexed. As I write this, tears flow from my eyes. We all feel pain even the strong break down from time to time. Some of us just hold it in more than others. Sometimes you sacrifice so much just to stay in the light. Even the people who never frown, eventually break down, there is no avoiding >:(
Happy Mother's Day To All Hot Mamas
O my beautiful mother, many women have done admirable things, but you surpass them all. I love you unconditionally.
Come go with me we've got it made
Let me take you on an escapade
