Yesterday, did baking with sis. It was also one of my worst day ever. I thought everything was alright, till you started to scold me in the evening. What the fuck? So much for yearning to hear your voice. I know, I can never be compared to any of your friends alright, I fucking know that. Yes I know if anything happens to your precious friends, I'll be blamed. If scolding is all I get from loving you, I rather leave. Oh God. You make me so vulnerable, everytime your hurtful words pierced through me, I become weaker. You know I'm very emotional. At least tell me nicely rather than just shooting it straight to my face. Friends.. joy.. friends.. joy.. Seriously, I rather die. I wish a car would just bang me down. You're the only one who got me suicidal damn it. _'s mom once told me "If a person can use the f word or any vulgarities that means he has no respect for the other party. If a couple has no respect for each other then the relationship is not worth." I will always rmb what she said. Thanks sha, vic, brandon, michelle for making me feel much better although its a fact that I've been hurt. Slitting wrists, banging yourself against the wall & all aint a bright thing to do after all cos does he care if I was hurt?
Tuition in the afternoon. Whole day has been boring for me. Used the comp & studied. Have been thinking of him alot lately, but has he? ): I really do miss you. Changed my nail color today to pink. Friends always tell me they see baby outside. I'm tired emotionally, I wanna hide myself under my blanket & let my sadness float away. Goooodnight.
"Commit thy way unto the LORD; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass." -Psalm 37:5
I can't help but love him with all my heart even though at time it hurts so bad.
Because I don't know you anymore...
Everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy
