Went to meet girlfriend at jurong east in the afternoon. In the train, it was so irritating, the guy I was sitting beside kept coming so close to me, I was so pissed off. I keep moving front & back. Urgh. While waiting for her, I went to withdraw money, I print the receipt & it gave me a big shock, the amount on it wasn't how much I got. It can't be decreased so badly. I went to check again, luckily nothing happen, just that the receipt is bullshit. Girlfriend & me went to the library to study. Vic joined us later (: Had dinner at LJS. Wanted to meet ketam today but in the end also never, although he wanted to send me home, sorry. Took the train home, was so upset, I was having suicidal thoughts, again..
Life has never been that bad until now...
Ever since I moved to my new place, things has taken a detour.
- Boyfriend has been angry with me & we haven't talk for 2 days. It is the longest period of time that we have not talk when we quarreled.
- Ketam is angry with me.
- Sis keeps shouting at me for every single thing.
- Studies have been going down the drain.
- Cash flow problems.
- & I'm down here having suicidal thoughts.
- Etc...
I don't know why this is happening to me. I wish boyfriend would care cos without you my life = dead. But I thank God for my wonderful friends somehow. Please don't turn your back on me, I really need you. I've not been myself lately I know that. I can't pull myself together. I hate life, I wanna die. God, take me with you please. I have enough suffering here.
Always tell someone that you love them because you never know what day will be their last, or your own. Always seek to resolve your problems or disagreements with your loved ones because if either of you should pass on before, the one who is left alive will have the rest of their life to ponder those unresolved feelings but will never find closure. & closure usually brings peace.
Forever & ever, I will love you both.
I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
