I'm back, the chalet was hell fun that's for sure (: We checked in on monday. Sis, leonel, ben, damian, shijie & justin were there. After awhile, rachael, liting, meixuan & nicholas came. It was raining, we couldn't bbq but thanks to those guys with brilliant ideas. They set up their own mini pit & we started cooking. Drinking games, chatters, laughters, cam-whoring was awesome. Hahaha! Well, not everyone stayed though. At night, headed down to baby's place cos I wanted to see him so badly, I stayed over. I love you my sweet cupsy cake. I cry not bcos you hurt me, I cry bcos after thinking whether what I've been doing is the right thing, & how much I have love you has got me doing things I promised myself never to do it for now. I somehow betrayed myself. For you, for you, I grow more blindly in love. Please tell me if this is right or wrong?
On tuesday, baby's kisses & cuddles woke me up. Breakfast was fattening- chicken wings! Hahaha, he wants me to grow fat. We were watching tv as the rain fell from the sky. I suddenly had the urge to eat ice cream so we went to buy ice cream! Heee [: Went back to his place & fell asleep on the sofa. I left arnd 5pm, headed down to pasir ris to meet sis. We went back to the chalet. Washed up, went to meet the guys, they were playing pool. Went for dinner, then back to the chalet. Jonathan came. We wanted to meet zhiyang so we went all the way to his chalet but in the end we couldn't find him so we actually walked all the way there for nothing. Came back, talk & talk. Lincoln suddenly called me, he's going to NS soon. Baby called but instead of hearing his voice, I was talking to his other friends. Kasman & friends were damn funny. Hahhaa, & I swear they were so retarded. Roar, I wanna go to baby's next gig soon. I was so tired so I went to bed, it was so cold. I shared pillow with jonathan & in the morning when I woke up, my neck & back were aching.
We checked out today. Me & sis headed home. I just threw away alot of clothes, it was all mom's fault. But oh well, the old should go & the new should come in isn't it? Ha. I didn't meet jane today, I felt totally fucked up. It's raining marc&joy now, it's so cold. How nice to have a cup of hot chocolate & watching dvds with your dearest, sweeeeeeet! (: Okay, I have to get back to my books now, dang!
Honey, I still don't like the fact you lied to me about quitting this & that. It's really not fun, does it benefit you by lying to me? Oh gosh, please don't ever lie to me again, you know I can't take liars fuck.
The ones after many years & counting.
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
