Slept at 2am+ this morning. Although I was really tired, it took me quite some time to fall asleep. My heart just felt so heavy, like there was something left hanging I've yet to retrieve. I woke up, & on the comp. Marc aint happy with me cos I can't follow him to jam. I mean darling, I alrdy have plans today which is to study, & nothing more than that. I wanna follow it & not stray away, you get it? Sometimes it hurt so bad cos you know you really have to do something, yet someone asks you out too. My friends always tell me, in order to get what I want or what I wanna do, I have to break pple's heart. I don't mean to do it, but I guess I've got no choice. I've alrdy told you from the start that you can't get angry with me if I can't meet you & all cos this year, I plan to focus mainly on my studies. I really tried to listen to you, meet you whenever, wherever, but you gotta know sometimes I need my own space. Sorry if I can't be there with you 24/7, but at least I know I tried to give you what you want so that you are happy. But perhaps, I've gone back to my old ways on me being unhappy again just to satisfy pple >:(
I'm gonna touch up my nails now. Gonna meet Jane tonight, maybe she'll help lighten my sorrows. Perhaps I shld go back to last time, where I was just out having fun, not giving 2 flying fucks about boys. I guess the happiest people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the best of everything they have. Till then..
Life isn't about how to survive the storm, but how to dance in the rain.
I'm on a coaster-collision
I'm not about to give in
