My day started off very terribly. The pain is unbearable. Imagine half way through chapel where so many pple were including teachers, you break down & cry, you ran, ran as fast as you could out of the hall to the toilet. There you sit crying beside the toilet bowl. Heart all shattered by the one you love so dear. Emotions took control of you, you felt numb, you wanted to ease the pain, you wanted to jump down. That was what happened to me.
After school, had humanities exam. I had no time to complete SS paper while for history, I didn't bother to do finish. Mom came to fetch me & bev home. I'm emotionally & physically drained. God, why aint you there when I needed comfort? Why don't I feel you easing my pain & taking all my burdens away with you? I rather you take me into paradise than make me stay in this world full of betrayal, lies, heartaches & misery.
Your pictures are everywhere in my wallet, my bedroom, the computer & in my heart. How am I supposed to forget the love we once had? I don't want to forget cos I refuse to do so. My weakness was to love you so much. So much that when reality slaps me in the face I could hardly accept. Was I living in a fantasy world? I must erase, burn all that belonged to you. You've disappointed me. Perhaps you don't feel as much pain as I do cos you hardly love but I don't know. I've trusted you all along, have you?
LET'S END IT. Simple to say but hard to ever forget. "I don't want you to give up, not for him or his sake but for yourself!" Yes, I don't want to give up, I won't. Or should I? I can't possibly be crying my eyeballs out every single fucking day. But you asked me to go & never wait. I can't, I really can't. I guess our love was put to a test, only when it is tested, we will know how deep it is. In time of crisis, you will know one's importance. & boy, I've known how important you are to me. I know that I can't make you stay but I would give my final breath.
"There's only one reason why he would want to be single- to get other girls." After hearing this, my heart shattered. Do you think its true? Omfg ): I'm feeling worst than ever.
School's out for me tmrw, mending a broken heart can cause alot of damage.
I need you right now daddy.
For love, one can do alot of things.
I'd have to write a thousand songs
To make you comprehend how beautiful you are
