Boyfriend stealers, boys who have flings, liars, etc.. can seriously go fuck themselves. You jolly well know who you are.
Yesterday, headed down to baby's place at midnight. I hate midnight charges by the way. I swear I hate taking cabs past midnight, its just scary. & I don't know why pple keep looking or stare at me from yesterday till today. Roar, it seemed weird. Stayed over at baby's place till 2pm. Was supposed to go home early but some shit happened. Never ever gonna trust so easily. Never ever gonna give myself in so easily. Never ever gonna treat & love him like I always do anymore. What for I be nice, when I get shit in return? Isn't it?
Came home, mom sort of question me where I went. Talked to justin vanderstraaten . He's surname is just so cool! I love it. Hahhaa.. Went to buy some ingredients for my F&N cooking. Am really tired now. I wanna rest early. & I hope mom can fetch me to school tmrw morning. Going to school by cab everyday is such a waste. In one year, if I go to school by cab everyday, it'll amount to more than a thousand. Omgosh, I can buy my chanel/coach/LV/katespade/loewe/gucci bag! Alright, I wanna rest now, goodnight world.
Thanks baby & gabbie for the best wishes for my 'O' Level F&N practical exam tmrw [: Much appreciation.
Mom: Where did you go? Why aint you at home after midnight?
Joy: I stayed over at marc's place laaa.
Mom: You sleep with him on the bed uh?
Joy: Aiyahh, don't have la. *trying to change subject*
Mom: You better don't do it again unless you want to see me end up in mental hospital.
I don't wanna love you like I do anymore cos I don't wanna get hurt at the end of the day. I shld ask myself "Am I really happy?" Somehow I stumble upon that question. Trying to calm myself down, I finally see the truth. Holding on to this love, is indeed tough. What breaks me, makes me stronger.
I just want to run, just want to hide away.
All that I'm meant to be
Melting in your hand
