So well, couldn't really sleep well last night :\ Cos I miss baby so much. Have been using the comp for a few hours alr. I'm still in my towel, I have not gone to change after having my shower. My eyes are strained. My heart seems to stop beating. I'm emotionally tired. Oh lord, give me strength to perservere on for the following days. Alright, I guess I really shld change now. Tuition in awhile. Till then..
I've been challenging myself with these thoughts for about a year now. Do I feel that I need to change? I don't think so. Seems as if the ones who feel that I do need to change are the ones I've been romantically involved with. So maybe I need to reevaluate myself on a relationship level. Recently I was out of line with someone. Not in a disrespectful "fuck you, you piece of shit!" way, but in a way where I expressed how I felt about the actions he was doing. Pretty much, I had no room to talk though. Yes, I do think it was fine for me to express how I feel, but I guess I was wrong to expect him to satisfy my requests and the conversation backfired on me. Do I regret what has happened? No. Do I wish I said things differently, or at least see where he was coming from first before I reacted? Yes. Unfortunately, you can't change the past. You can only learn from it.
Andy!
& if it's a hero you want
I can save you. Just stay here
