Yesterday, woke up at 5am, then headed down to Maris Stella convent. Did some paintings & all. It was good, we spent like 5 hours. It was all worth it & for a good cause. But something scary happen. The scraper was attached to this super long pole & I just lean it against the wall. Obviously I thought it would stay still there, but unknowingly, the whole thing fell. Like omg omg omg omg, it went passed me. I could literally feel it touch my skin slightly. I was panting like mad. Thank God it didn't cut me, for sure I'll land up in the hospital. Super freaky.. Went for lunch then back home to sleep. At night, headed down to Pasir Ris park to meet Justin. He has his own amount of problems, I had mine too, but it wasn't much compared to his. I was trying non stop, to actually make him feel happier, which I think I ended up making a fool of myself. Heh. Baileys, Chivas, Green tea (: I disliked Chivas cos it'll make me fly on cloud nine, okay I mean gone, which happened one time. Hahaha, but still I had it.
In the morning, we didn't literally see the sun rise, but we saw colors forming in the skies. It was beautiful. Haven't seen such a splendid image for a veryyy longgg time. Left the place arnd 7am. He went back home, which I know was a super long journey for him, I'm truly sorry. Came back home, washed up, & crashed onto my bed.
The moment I woke up, things were as fucked up as ever. I've been feeling rather * since yesterday. Eric's fucking pissing me off, to the very end I swear. I don't even dare to talk to Gerald at all. So like wow, everything's screwed. & I'm the cause of it. Also, when I was out, Mom used to call me asking me when I'll be back. Surprisingly, she didn't last night. & when she came into my room in the afternoon, she didn't say much. It was then when I realised no matter how my world arnd me crumbles, I know my Mom is the person whom will love me forever.
Today's April's Fool Day. I don't even have any mood to prank anyone, pfft. Started a call with En over MSN. It was damn funny. I could hear Tim's dog, Bombs, a bulldog, panting away, super cuteeee :D So like yeah, I have no idea what to say to Gerald anymore, totally fucked up. I'm so hungry, I can just die. Haven't eaten since like what, yesterday 4pm. Urgh.. Fuck fuck fuck. I hate myself. Kayyy bye.
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If I'm hungry in the middle of the night, would you cook for me? If I'm feeling cold, would you hug me tight? If I'm feeling bored, would you come play with me? If I've fallen sick, would you look after me? If I'm feeling sad, would you cheer me up happily? If I'm worn out, would you lie with me in bed? If I say yes, would you agree with me? If I go onto another island, would you come with me? Would you hear my favorite songs with me over & over again? Would you catch my favorite shows together with me? Would you tell me I'm beautiful? Would you promise to never ever lie to me? ...Could I be your only one forever?
edited \ 10:36pm
En & Tim just pranked me. I totally fell for it, damn those 2 man, forever one. Roar. Brother bought me an air cooler for my room today, thank you <3 Went down with sis just now to get food. Came back home, & watch tveeee.. I'm superduper tired right now. My eyes are half close alrdy. I feel bad not letting Janet come over, but I had no choice cos I'm too tired. I totally need my rest. Shopping tmrw, yippeeee yayeeee meeeeee. Goodnight world [:
Like a shooting star, I will go the distance.
Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
