Last night, met Jesper at my hse. Thanks for the gift yo (: Walked him home, then his Dad drove me home as he was going out to buy beer. His little brother was so adorable. We were both talking about Avatar & Jesper didn't have any idea what we were talking about! Came home, was on the phone with Marc, then conferenced with Jane & him, therefore I slept kinda late.
Woke up at 4.30am this morning to revise, was really sleepy! Before going to school, Jesper came to meet me. Took a cab & dropped him off at his place. I don't know why I can't do the simplest thing, like reading the readings from the vernier caliper or doing chromatography. Gaaahhh.. 'O' Levels are officially over! I'm so happy :D *jumps for joy* After school, headed down to Ikea with En where we had lunch & heart to heart talks. Walked arnd & took down stuff I want for my room. Happy happy too! Came home, washed up & slept. Pretty much bored now. I need to plan my days properly for the holidays, I wanna spend it fruitfully, & also with people I love. Yayeee.
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L.O.V.E. Talk about love & I would escape from it. It was meant to be something wonderful, but I'm really sick & tired of it. Love can't hurt you unless you let it. "The greater the capacity to love, the greater your capacity to feel the pain." Isn't it so true? I've experienced too much sadness, yet again I do have my share of happiness. I want everything (happy moments) I have with you back once again, but its so clearly proven that it will never happen. Is it time for me to move on? Does it mean that almost 3 years & its enough for the both of us? My heart aches. Tears have flown. I'm confused.
"But I watch her sleep every time, & think to myself; I want to have children with her, send our kids to school with her, cook dinner at home with her, travel with her & the kids, rush down with her to meet our kids' principals whenever they cause trouble with her, teach our kids with her & I want to grow old with her. I want to watch her fall asleep every night. It's falling in love all over again each time. I mean yeah, I'm not a perfect boyfriend, I make mistakes time to time, it's not that I'm not human. Our love is a paper-thin layer to euphoria. Who knows where we'll end up? I love you more than anything, Joy! Even if God forbid." -Marc Ashley
The love that you used to give me can't be found. I lost my way, you said you'd stay. I keep climbing and hoping things would change & the sky turns grey, and the water from the rain washes progress away. You think that I'm full of it, arguments, always pissed, man I'm tired. Every kiss, that I missed, you know I'm trying..
*I pray for better days to come*
As I sail with you across the finest oceans, on our way to find the key to our emotions.
I got a pocket
A pocketful of sunshine
