Yesterday, had English paper 2 & Math paper 2. Both were alright. After school, came home straight, rested & studied. Past midnight, conferenced with Girlfriend & Wolfgang. Slept at 3am+.
Daddy fetched me to school today. Chemistry paper was a killer, I didn't have enough time to complete at all. Came back home straight & rested. Went out with Marc in the evening. Hang arnd at Plaza Sing. Later at night, his parents came, went to grab a bite then went back to his place.......... Quarreled with him.
This.is.so.fucking.depressing.
I'm so disappointed in you. I tried giving you another chance but you failed to treasure it. You claim you want me back & all, but why are you doing things that are hurting me, when you know clearly of my character? If you love to flirt so much, go ahead I won't hold you back, not anymore. If you can even criticize me then just fuck off. You calling me plastic is like you asking me to die in front of you. If I'm not what you wanted in your "perfect" girl, then I'm sorry to have disappoint you. If you really love me, you would have told me truths from the beginning & not only when I find out or ask you. You jolly well know you've cheated on me before, & with that picture right in front of my eyes, tell me how would I feel? You know the answer. I feel as though you don't love me, you only want me. You know how much I had to try to trust you again, now I feel like the stupidest person ever. Why do you pple like to cheat my feelings so much! Haven't I been good enough at all! What have I done to deserve this? I'm so afraid of life, again, I want to just run away. Lord, bring me close to you, its where I can only place my love & trust in.
I've learnt something out of everything. What you hear/see isn't always the truth. Back then, I was so filled with anger & betrayal & every little shitty feeling there is on Earth. Sometimes I just don't know what I'm in for. "I love you. There's so much more than/to this.." I wonder sometimes if I was the only one you told & deep down actually truly mean it.
Fighting with the shadows in your head, living out the same old moment.
Do you hear me
I'm talking to you
