Thursday afternoon, didn't meet my girlfriends. Didn't know what happened. So went to get my phone with mommy. Decided to get N82 (warm titanium), I think black is ugly but many pple still get it. Haha, after that went to Toa Payoh to get my screen protector, paid 12 bucks for it. Roar! Mommy dropped me off at the mrt & I went to Bishan. Shopped a lil at Junction8, the place seemed so alien to me. Waited for brother, he came to pick me up then went to grammy's hse. Had dinner & everyone was there, it was such love <3 Grammy, just why did you have to ask me about marc, I'm clueless myself.
Yesterday, dragged myself out of bed in the morning. Headed down to Bugis to meet girlfriend, huizhen, atiqah & rachel. The weather was a killer, so damn bloody hot. Went to have a small bite then went to rent our costume for the carnival. Took hours in there. Haha [: After that, walked arnd then went back to Bugis. Bumped into Janet. Atiqah went off, we headed to town. Went to far east to get our stockings. Walked alot, legs were aching to badly. Had a bad bus ride home, this fucking guy didn't want to move behind but kept standing beside me, I was sitting down. His bloody hand kept touching my back & it was so damn uncomfortable. I kept moving yet still no change. So irritating I swear. Came home, got addicted onto my N82. Haha.
I've wasted my whole day today. Didn't go to church, stayed at home. Fiddled with my new phone. Didn't touch a single book at all. Currently, I'm so heartbroken I swear I can die now >:( Fuck. School's starting next monday, I haven't touch my books, homeworks & all the shit. I just want to hide at one corner & cry ): plus shopping too! Urgh ): Haven't talk to marc for pretty long. He didn't bother to call me either. Wow wow wow, wake up Joy! ): Fuck it, I'm going to watch tv & snack on food now. My life seemed to be completely upside down. I'm not setting my priorities right & I'm growing fat. What the fuck is wrong with the world!?
I love her very much (:
The hardest part of living is just taking breaths to stay.
I'm a host of imperfection
& you see past all that
