Yesterday was an awesome day out with my girlfriends to celebrate bev's belated birthday! Before that I went to attend mass at church alone. Bumped into Miss Reena, such a coincidence. Headed down to cityhall to meet chandni & suba then bev & vic came. Girlfriend & sha came later on. We walked to Haji Lane for dinner & shisha (: Food was great. Brendan & gang came to pass the pressie to bev, how sweet! Bused to clarke quay, had ice cream & went to cafe iguana. Bev made me drink picante & didn't want me to know the ingredients used. Boy, it was horrid! Drank shots, got onto the dancefloor with my girlfriends. Danced our hearts out & was sort of rewarded by 4 tequila shots by a unknown group of pple. How great! Well, I had hell lot of fun! Managed to swing my troubles & sadness away at least for awhile. Hahah :D Went to meet the vic's friends. Girlfriend & suba went home. Me, vic, bev, sha, chandni & the other guys stayed. Went outside home club to slack. I drink & got drunk, again.. Fuck.
From what I can recall & what marc told me this is what happened. Don't laugh [: That guy I don't know what's his name kept pouring alcohol into the cup so I just take & drink only. But I ended up being drunk, what the fuck? I kept whining to my girlfriends that I miss marc & wanna see him so badly. I didn't know they actually called him down to pick me up. I didn't want to go, I wanted to stay there still but I can't. I don't know what happened after that but I needed so much hugs. Cabbed to marc's place. I know every cab driver was afraid I vomit in their cab. Oh whatever. Had a fucking hangover. Thank you marc for bringing me safe to your place & putting me in bed. Thank you girlfriends for sharing my sorrows with me though I might be stubborn at times. I really appreciate every single thing you've done to make me feel better. Stayed over at marc's place till evening. I didn't want to go home cos I wanted to just stay with him for as long as I could.
Some retarded fucktard anyhow msged me just to make friends. Thats damn lame. I told him straight I wasn't interested. My head is hurting so badly still. Caffeine isn't doing its work at all, urgh. I'm tired right now, I want to sleep. I don't feel good at all & I've been coughing. Aye, alot of pple has been asking me out, I don't even feel like going out at all. Irritating! I just need marc & thats all that matters to me. Shucks, I'm running low on cash!
I've been thinking alot lately. I don't know what I'm doing recently with my life. Am I just messing things up? I want to be a good girl who studies yet goes out to have fun too. I want to be a healthy girl who doesn't drink or smoke but I just have to do it to relieve my stress & pain. I don't want to make my parents worry for me all the time but sometimes I just have to disobey. I don't know, I'm so confused. I'm starting to hate life alot, sometimes I just feel like dying then every heartache will cease. Why are pple fighting, why are there wars? Lord, why don't you make us a pple of love? It breaks my heart to see what this world is becoming of ):
I'm gonna post only half of the pictures today so come back here again on wednesday for the another half. Hahaha :D
Gosh, look at my face!
Through the words of pain
We've never met
