Yesterday, I was very sleepy in humanities class, watched some video. & I was doing my chinese hmwk in math class. Don't know why Mr Ho didn't say anything but when others do, he'll ask them to keep away. Hahaha. Chemistry class was boring to the maxxxxxx. I passed my chinese test, yayeee! I feel that I'm doing better, but not that good enough. I wanna get at least B3 for 'O' Level chinese cos I don't wanna retake. Gaahhh.. After school, mom came to fetch me home. I was just complaining to her how tired I was. Fell asleep on the sofa then had tuition after that. I pleaded my tutor to finish early cos I was so tired. I don't what made me so completely drained. Sigh ): Supposed to sleep early in the end ended up having a unpleasant chat with baby. I couldn't go to bed so I slept arnd midnight. I hope you're alright, you said you have issues. I'm worried for you, why don't you share them with me? As your girlfriend, I feel so useless that I can't do anything. I don't really wanna bother how hurtful your words can be some times, as long as you're happy I don't even mind you shouting or scolding me.
Didn't go to school today. "Having problems with marc is it?" That's what both mommy & daddy asked. Obviously, I had to say no. I don't want them to create a big fuss. Went down to jurong east library to meet girlfriend. Studied. Later, wolfgang & vic came. I really studied & I think its much more productive rather than going to school where I have many distractions. Well, I'm happy being arnd them. At least I don't think about the unhappy stuff. But how long must I keep myself busy just to forget the unhappy things? It can't possible be forever. I'll be totally drained. Ketam said he saw me, but that ass didn't say hello to me! Dad came to fetch me home & here I am blogging. I didn't even wanna come online at first cos I just want to sleep! Sick & tired of life, I'll say yes.
I have F&N and math test tmrw. I'm not going to do my chinese essay. Am I gonna flunk my mid years? Damn it.
Never ending quarrels.
Never imagine that the place where I pen my heartfelt thoughts will become a disaster in reality.
My eyes are dry from the tears I've cried.
Feelings change, boy what about yours?
Can you feel my pain?
You made me so weak to go on, so weak to love you.
I guess its time to put myself first before others.
We aren't the happy people we used to be anymore. Can I turn everything back around?
If I tell you, you were the most amazing person I ever had, would you believe me?
If I tell you how special you are in my eyes, would you trust my words?
If I told you I love you, would you doubt it?
Happiness is what we all want. Can it be attainable?
Don't worry mom & dad, everything's fine. Me & marc are okay...
You 'idiots' out there must be happy I'm such in a lousy state now right! Seriously, you see the wall in front of you, go bang it or something okay.
I hide beneath the stormy clouds
Your lips will blow them all away
