Time passed so fast, it's alr the 1st of August! Last month, my friendster hit more than 2200 views. Haha! Last night, was on the phone with muttaqin for so long, we were studying chem. I miss him so much, so I decided to call him before I sleep but he didn't answer. Got a new game to play on my psp today, super cute! Hee (: Chem test was screwed anyway. Didn't see him arnd in school & I just got to know that he's suspended again ): Sigh, why why why. Joined back my class for math alr. Mr Ow didn't teach us anything during humanities, so we did our own self study. After school, was supposed to stay back with en to study but in the end, went to meet him to study. Then, he said he wanted to go buy milk, so I waited. Waited for so long, he still wasn't back. I was damn worried, I called girlfriend & I almost cried. Just why do I care for you so much? In the end, he was talking to his friends he saw. I knew if I go home, he would go talk to them. I decided to go home & I was right. I'm not angry with him or anything. I just wish he would care more for me, that's all I ask for. I was just tearing when I walked to the bus stop, in the bus & walking home ):
It breaks my heart to see him turning out bad. When I was with him, I tried to nurture him, teach him the good in life, did so many things for the sake of him just for him to be a good man, a good husband & a good father in future. Yes, I've said a lot, I've did a lot. Everyone knows it all. But now that we no longer are together, everything's gone down the drain. My efforts, my tears & all. Ahh, how long can this pain take me? I love you too much to see you leave me, but you left anyway.. Boy, tell me you still care. When you say you will always want me, do you mean it? I want all my memories with you, only you. I want you to know bcos I love & care for you, everything I do is for you. The time I've sacrificed, you shld know. Please be understanding. I love you.
But do you love me?
There are 100 crazy things I do to keep myself from missing you.
I will get lost into your eyes
& everything will be alright
