After school yesterday, went for lunch at dover with en, jo, julien & jenise. All of us ate very lil. Had GB day rehearsal under the hot sun. Rushed home with girlfriend to change. We were rushing like mad. Farewell was great, it managed to allow me to put some unhappy things behind. I love my girls. Mom came to fetch us after farewell party. Me & girlfriend cam-whored inside my room. She went home soon after. Lincoln came & we talked. Thanks for comforting me a lil. I slept at 2am+. Cried again. Worried for marc cos I know he's really stress out at the moment. He wants me to leave him alone. What am I to do?
Just ended tuition, I wanna go for a swim now.
Everything is over. Something I could never imagine. The good things have come to an end? I've got no appetite, gastric. Urgh. I've been cursing & swearing. My heart aches (but why for you?) Music calms me down. Reality is still here. The pain is still lingering on. When will this end? Will it end? Late nights everyday. Feeling so unwell. I need him. But is he still there? I don't want fairytales please. How can I live as though you don't exist? It's tough. Tell me how you are feeling. So much said, nothing happens. Downpours of tears. It's killing me. I need a hug really badly. I'm physically, mentally, emotionally tired. But does anyone care? All I ever thought of, gone. I miss you. Will you come back for me? Let it go joy, let it go.
If I could, I would do all of this again. Travel back in time with you to where this all began.
Sis gave me this to cheer me up in the morning! She's so sweet!
Put your records on
I'll play the same old song
