Last night, I tossed & turned. I fell asleep finally but woke up in the early hours of the morning. I felt that my heart was really heavy. It's just that things don't seem right, so I went to the toilet to wash my face. I miss baby terribly much, I cried >:(
The sad thing, is that I didn't open any book to study today. I'm really disappointed in myself. Used the comp in the morning & later I realised I had to go to church for class. Then, me & brother headed down to grandmother's hse for Uncle Dave birthday. Watched The Skeleton Key dvd, very dumb show though. Cabbed home, & here I am blogging. I miss baby very very much.
I sit down to write about love & the way I love my baby. What words do I used to distinguish true love from the rest? I sit & wonder do I really love you? I sit & wonder are we destined for greatness? Or are we designed with razor sharp flaws? I sit & wonder about things that I need no explanation for. My mind is my playground to think of things to bring us down. I'm sorry that life has made me this way. I'm sorry that I need to outline the diluted perceptions of my intellect. It's just that sometimes I wonder why things are the way they are. I wonder is it just me? I wonder if that's the way it is- nothing to change. Well I have changed for the better. My mind is no longer unsure of its sanity. I shouldn't wonder about things of that matter. Because wondering only makes me paranoid. When I knew you loved me from the start. We all have flaws but we have fatigued the edge of ours. Things are the way they are to help us grow. What words do I use to describe our love? Mhm..
Would you stand by me
Let me hold you tight
