joy

Listen to my heartbeat.
I'm alr nice by asking someone to talk to you rather than me. But it seems like nothing gets through your puny brain. I'm fine with most things unless you go to an extent where whatever I say, you don't bother though you know it's wrong, then that's totally bad. You say you feel bad, then why the hell are you doing the things you're doing right at the moment? Haven't you got brains to think? Sometimes they say, don't let your heart control your brain. Oh girl, pleaseeee.. I do not want to pick an argument with you as I know you seem like a nice girl. & I do not want to act as someone I am not. You can decide right now.

Look, you think it's so fun huh!? Why don't you put yourself in my shoes, be me. See how I fucking feel alright. You're old enough to think through, don't keep letting your friends find solutions for you. Seriously.. If you really feel that bad, talk to me! I don't want this fucking thing to keep dragging.

I do not want to bring him into the picture cos I know we three or at least you & me can sort this out. I respect you, and therefore, I hope you know that what doesn't belong to you, doesn't. Don't be a bitch & fight over something I have & you don't. I really don't know what's going on in your mind right now. I'm telling you right now, that this incident is really making me unhappy & angry. If something bad were to happen, I will never let you of. I'm not threatening you, but it's a fact. Cos it's pissing me off.



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Went to plmgs for rehearsal. Oh gosh, stand under the scorching sun. I have a distinct color on my neck alr. Urgh! & my face is as red as a lobster. Rawr! :\ Supposed to visit that person in the hospital but I couldn't get through him so I didn't. Went back home. I'm really tired. I miss my baby so much.

So baby, would you leave me if I weren't nice enough?

I feel like I've won
You're my key to survival