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Last night, sleep eluded me. Thing just weren't right for me. I kept waking up. I dropped my phone on the floor accidentally. I just didn't want to go to school this morning. I indulged myself in music before leaving the hse this morning. Baby didn't come to school. I had bad mood today. Our sitting arrangement for physics changed & I'm no longer sitting with my darling vic ): Mr Ow didn't come teach us today so a relief teacher came in. Did a lil of my hmwk & just chatted with my darlings. I love sha's victoria secret perfume. 4 periods of english again today, did past years' N level paper. Freezing inside the room. Miss Thio didn't teach us too. After school, went home straight away. Called baby. Something's wrong with me. I don't wish to share about it. Gonna have tuition in awhile. That's about it la. F.

Whenever I talk to you, I feel like a total failure in being your girlf. I know I might be the best girlf alright. You may say I'm emo-ing right now. I just feel out of place somehow. Darling, put yourself in my shoes, you'll know exactly how terrible I'm feeling. No one can ever be me, no one can ever understand. Will you lie to me again? Will you ever do something hurtful again? I'm worried. I'm afraid of what will happen next. All these have stressed me out too much. But I don't blame you for the cause of my fear & all. I love you baby & you know I don't wanna lose you. I've also learnt not to love someone too much, for I know I'll be the one being hurt in the end. I know I can never trust you or your words anymore cos you even told me indirectly that you lie most of the time. I feel so insecure, I'm so gonna break down ):

I'll wait & see where this love is taking me to...

For you're my greatest love
You're my comforter & strength
You're the first, you're the last
You're my guiding light.
Lord, help me fight, this fight of faith..

I'll give you my heart on a string
I just don't wanna miss anything