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"When love is the strongest, less words are needed."

Monday, dragged myself to school. Slept at 1am+ as I was just settling stuff which totally wasted my time. Tried to stay as awake as I can in school. Had a lost of appetite too :\ Well, I was just settling stuff that I wasn't paying attention at all. I'm sure gonna get a lousy grade although I know I could have gotten a grade A again. Urgh, mofos. Headed straight home after school, dozed off in the bus. Danial was so funny, he was afraid I fell off the chair! Haha! When Mommy is not at home, I realised I can't handle stuff. Am I that independent as I said I was? Hmmm...

Tuesday, was kinda late for school cos the bus was too packed I couldn’t hop on. What nonsense. So I took the bus then the mrt. I forgot to bring my thermometer to school and Comms faci was being a bitch, making so much noise about it. Luckily, Marc has the ear one, so he lent me but Comms faci just had to insist I pay him when Marc was cool about it.

Wednesday, as usual wasn’t paying much attention in class. Webcammed with Gerald, was so so damn happy to see him! He is so adorable, especially is curly hair, which makes him even more cute. –pinches your softcheeks. Wanted to bank in money near my place, then in the end the machine had problems. Grrr, make me walk so far!

Thursday, 1 team went off as they couldn’t tolerate Science lesson, how funny. But anyway, my presentation went great! (: After school, had photoshop workshop. Thinking about it, I shldn’t go cos what the person taught I alrdy knew, kinda wasted my time. But on a lighter note, Daddy came to pick me up & what’s better is that he bought me awesome food – fish spaghetti! Hahaha!

Friday, one by one my classmates started to leave class. I perservered through the whole day. After class, headed down to fairfield for some thanksgiving ceremony. I felt so nostalgic when I entered, it brought back so so much memories. Memories which includes friendships & relationships. 5 years in that school not only left me with good memories but some heartaches too. But then again, I've longed left them behind and moved on.. A new school, new environment, new lease of life. After everything ended, headed down to Gerald's place and I stayed over.

Yesterday, Gerald left early in the morning for his tournament, while I was still sleeping enjoying the aircon in his room (: But I head down to see him in the afternoon, yet again he brought back a Gold medal. Congratulations, am so proud of you baby! After that, came home rested and had dinner. Guess where we had dinner? Sushi Tei!! ^^v Hahaha, our favorite! We both ate till we were so bloated. Anyway, stayed over his place again. Wheee..

Lazed at home the whole day, we're such bummers I know. Dinner at Sakae Teppanyaki at Airport Terminal 3, it was good. I'm finally back home right now. The weekends are coming to an end in just a few hours. I've to start revising for my UT3 which is gonna come real soon. Baby sent me to my doorstep and it was really sad seeing him leave. I wish he could stay with me longer, but then again, impossible. I'm anticipating for the weekends to arrive again! Alrighty, I'm off to shower and rest. Lurveeee~

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Recalling my past separation, & so then I try to recollect my memories. & I couldn't. It seems like I've lost that key to the memory in my brain. I don't know. I've read about things like this & a doctor once said that usually due to what that person's been true, those memories are not lost, but they're just subconsciously hidden in the brain, telling nothing to that one self. So I wonder if it's a good thing if I were to remember? After so much hoo-haa that happened regarding you, I'd never be friends with my exes. Over & moved on. Whether you've regretted at all, 2 words for you, fuck you. One thing's for sure is that, friends after lovers? For me now, that's impossible. I can't see myself being just ordinary friends with a person I once shared so much love with, the person I once held hands with, the person I know I could die for...

Now, my broken pieces caused by you were mended by someone who just came along my way. The person was much more than you could ever be. A gentleman, a lover. When I fall down, he picked me up. When I fell ill, he took care of me. When I'm down, he brought a smile to my face. When I'm worried, he assures me. I'm thankful for you, Gerald. Thank you from the first day we knew to up till now, thank you for being by my side, thank you for lending a listening ear and a crying shoulder, thank you for trusting me, thank you for being who you truly are, thank you for footing the bill most of the time, thank you for lending me your time, thank you for being the sweetest boyfriend I could ever had. & I could thank you for a million things if I could list them all here.

I don't wanna be your just-another-girl, cos you mean everything to me. I love you Gerald.





























































I will love you, in every single breath you take. I will.

Cos in your eyes I'd like to stay
You changed my world with just one kiss