Monday, went to school feeling so damn sleepy due to the fact I tried sleeping early but couldn't. Cognitive was kinda slack today which is always so good (: Nelson & the few pple went over to Causeway to get Burger King, so I had BK for lunch, yummy yumyum! After class, headed back straight home with Danial.
Tuesday, had presentation first thing in the morning regarding our proposal. Nelson's team evaluated our proposal, and it was good. Hehe, big thanks to them! Well, sometimes I get super pissed off when my team mates don't do a shit, its not like I'm damn 'chiong' or what, but fucking get the point that when work needs to be done, it has to be done. So just fucking get your asses and focus more! I do mostly all the work, you guys don't even deserve anything. Urgh.. I realised I have been ranting, I just can't stand certain pple! Excluding my team mates, I would say, the both of you. You two have seriously got out of my nerves. Can't believe I stood to your level to bitch about you two. & as I write this, which I know its pointless, is waiting minutes of my precious life away..
Can you imagine, two pple who used to be close to you, sort of suddenly backstabbed you. You can't imagine the amount of hurt I'm feeling right now. I really don't want to bother and let this affect me. My sweetest boyfriend have been the greatest, he has always been right there for me, sharing my pain & burden. You fuckers out there have done a good job by spreading bad things about me, saying how will I end up hurting my boyfi. Well, you know what, you all have done a great job, I totally admire you. But boohoo to you losers, nothing can ever break us apart. Keep trying for better results, I would like to see the outcome (: So back to what I was mentioning earlier on.. You didn't even respect me, what respect should I have of you now? As much as rumours are rumours, I chose to believe some, especially when you get them from pple you trust. Are you then gonna prove me wrong? I don't know to feel sad, disappointed, angry, or emotionless. Last but not least, are they still friends worth keeping? Perhaps I should have listened to my besties from the start, if I did I probably wouldn't end up like this.. Period.
Yesterday, wore formal to school for Enterprise Skills as we had some interview thing for that module. Burberry top, Satin skirt, Nine West heels, Casio watch, YSL bag. I felt pretty (: Hahaha! As usual, lesson was slack. Webcammed with Gerald here and there & it was great seeing his face. After school, went home, rested & headed down to Gerald's place. Dinner at Holland V, had my favorite tomato noodle soup!! His company was just priceless. He had a new laptop and a new bed, that spoilt brad! I envy him, hahaha! His new bed is still as comfy as the old one, hehe. Stayed over for the night..
Here I am back home.. Start of the day was alright, however, later part of the day I got really grumpy and irritated. Science module was not bad today, but I told my faci in the face that I rather not take this module if I could choose. Gaahh.. The bus I was in with Danial when we went back, was like sauna, we both were like dying inside. I can't believe there wasn't much air at all, it was so stuffy & hot, damn sick.. I'm feeling all so tired right now, together with my grumpiness, and all, urgh urgh urgh x10000000000000000.
I'm trying to stay as bubbly as I always am, I don't like things bringing me down. Baby's my sweetest love, he has been through the ups & downs with me, I'm really happy to have you right by my side hon. Your every action, your every word, makes me feel like I do not have any worries at all. I love you baby, for you are mine to keep. Even a few days, months or years from now, I still want you right beside me. Telling me how much you love me and sharing with me everything from the ground to the stars.
Don't tell me this won't last forever.
If I want to run away
Would you run with me?
